Reflection Journal

Letting Life Happen – Another Life Update

I am letting Life happen. Hey everyone, I hope you are well. In today’s post, I will be sharing another life update -Letting Life happen. In my recent post, Won’t let go, Life Update, I spoke about my views on everything that is going on right now around the world. I also spoke about starting a new life in Nigeria. Well, guess what? There’s another update and sh*t got real.

Letting Life Happen

Another Update

I lost my job last week. The company was getting much business coming in, so they had to let me go. It’s a weird feeling to be ‘fired’. I have never been ‘fired’ before. Well, mind you, I have only had two employments in my entire life. My first job was in a grocery store – Sainsbury’s. I worked as a checkout operator Assistant for five years in total. And then my Receptionist position with Mackie and Dewar. I was very excited when I got the job. I felt, finally, after all the hard work and rejects after rejects, everything is coming together.

It just breaks my heart that I spent so many years, like literally, all my school years the age of 16 years old to 29 years old, to get a job in an office environment. Only to work with them for seven months because of the Lockdown. It’s really heartbreaking. Maybe this is God’s way of telling me something.

Now I am moving away to start a new life in Nigeria.

How am I feeling?

Honestly, as scary as I am for deciding to relocate, I feel this is the best decision and the right time for a fresh start. Imagine if I hadn’t had plans to relocate? I will be going back to square one and starting all over again. Looking at my Life in the U.K, I feel sad. I feel like my life in the U.K. has been a waste. The U.K. has been a battlefield for me. I have dealt with, racism, disability discrimination, sexual abuse, bullying at school and work, self-identity struggle and family’s drama.

It’s a relief feeling, to be honest. Imagine the strength and trauma I have been going through since the age of 9 years old? All because of the colour of my skin. I was refused support from welfare and betrayed by my ‘so-called’ friends and let down by my family. I was fighting through all of it in silence. It was like I was invisible fighting hard to stay alive.

The sad thing is that it’s still happening presently, every single day. And no matter what I do, where I go or how far I feel I have come or achieved in my life; the past always follows. I have been living in the U.K. since I was nine years old, I turned 30 this year, and I want to spend the rest of my Life – Living. No more battles based on things that I can’t control.

Letting Life Happen

What great rewards we can receive when we let Life guide us on our path to purpose.

Moments and situations seem to flow with a distinct pattern and insight without the force of our own hands what powerful occurrences take place when we stop to allow them to. It is the wave we ride, not go against.

Allowing Life to happen doesn’t mean we are to take no action at all. The opposite is said to be true. There is always footwork to be done. We have to meet Life halfway. The effort you put into yourself, and the world around you is what will essentially be returned to you.

We have to recognize opportunity, and then if it is fitting to our path, we can then work to obtain it.

Allowing Life to Unfold

Allowing Life to unfold means we are creating adequate space for Life to breathe on its terms.

Soon we discover that the appropriate people surround us at the right times. People, places, and things become almost precisely placed in our lives, virtually like actors and props in a play. We can embrace these moments and people and take with us the lessons we have learned.

When we let Life happen, we are admitting to ourselves that there is a universal force surrounding us and our capabilities. Every move we make is part of the intricate makeup of our environment, emphasizing how important each of us truly is.

Natural Movement of Life

We can listen to this natural movement of Life, or we can turn a deaf ear and proceed into blindness, never seeking that which we were intended. It is up to us to observe and participate in the orchestrated sequences occurring all around us.

Pay attention to Life’s directions at work. We may not have been born with maps in our hands, but we were born with an intuitive sense of direction. It’s up to us to take the time to look at the world around us, understand the options before us, and pay attention to where we feel we truly belong.

The Way Forward

Like I always say – Life is a journey. It’s like going through a maze of different obstacles except you come out of it dead. I mean, even the elderly goes face discriminations and abuse too. Do I feel defeated? The simple is ‘No’. It’s me against the world, and I am a survivor, not a victim.

I am now a proud African Black woman and a mother. I am on a mission to make sure my daughter, my future children and my future husband does not experience half to any of the negativity that I have experienced from the society. As much as I want to make a list of goals I want to achieve in my time in Nigeria, I have to be mature about it. Here are a few purposes:

  • Start A Business
  • Explore
  • Start a family.

Look out for more in an upcoming post.

After Covid-19, we can’t really tell what the future holds anymore, but we can continue to plan, work hard and take care of each other. I would also say that I acknowledge how lucky I am to have an opportunity to start fresh a new lifestyle, and I am very grateful.

By the way, guys, Sasha-Ann and I were featured in an article of our local Newspaper ‘Evening Express’ over the weekend. Check it out Here

Talk soon.

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